I carry your name
Like a fragile glass
Careful not to drop it
Careful not to ask
If what I feel
Lives inside you too.
Because silence
Is safer than goodbye.
Every laugh we share
Feels like standing on an edge —
One word forward
And everything changes,
One truth spoken
And I could lose
The way you look at me now.
So I hide my heart
Behind jokes,
Behind pauses,
Behind messages rewritten
A hundred times
Before I send something smaller
Than what I mean.
You don’t know
How loud my feelings are
When the conversation ends.
How the quiet
Says your name
Over and over again.
I am not afraid of loving you —
I already do.
I am afraid
That saying it aloud
Might turn “us”
Into a memory
I have to pretend
I’m strong enough to forget.
So I stay here,
Balanced between hope and fear,
Holding emotions
Like a secret flame,
Warming my hands
While praying
It doesn’t burn everything down.
Because losing you
As something more
Would hurt…
But losing you entirely
Would break me.
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